Thursday, February 12, 2015

Rusty's Bridle

Back in January on the night of the 18th my dear sweet Rusty Girl passed away.  I feel very responsible for her death and it has affected me quite a bit.  When I went into my tack shed a few days later I saw her bridle and broke down into tears right there once again.  After that day I had a hard time falling asleep each night because I had so much running through my head until one night I finally got up and wrote this tribute to her and named it "Rusty's Bridle"

When I look at Rusty’s bridle I remember a leader, teacher, mentor and friend.  She was a leader because when the going got tough she would go out in front no matter what and lead the other horses and if she didn’t think something was safe then she would take you away from there.  She was a teacher because she gave and taught confidence to Easter, Mahalah, and Ranger on the trail and helped keep them calm when they got scared.  She taught them to be brave and to think things through and I can see what they have learned from her as I ride them, especially Easter and Mahalah.  Rusty also taught and gave confidence to new riders showing them that she would take care of them and how fun it is to ride.  She knew to be careful with the little ones and those who she could tell were scared, I was always especially amazed at how she treated each young rider with care.  She was a mentor for me because she showed me through the 12 years I had her that I needed to be patient with the horses still learning, and also with my children and students that I needed to have the same patience as her while they learned.  Rusty also helped me learn to become a leader and that just because you’re scared of something doesn’t mean you run but face it head on and lead others into that challenge.  She was my friend because she was always there when I needed a ride on a horse that I knew would take me one and she would listen to my problems and was once again be patient as I worked through them.  Rusty was taken too soon and I feel very guilty every day because I wasn’t out there when she needed me most and that I didn’t get her any help.  It will take me a very long time to get over this guilt and I may never get over it, but when I look at her bridle I will be reminded of what she did for me and those that she came in contact with and I will hang her bridle always in an honorable spot where I will be reminded of my Rusty Girl each and every time I go into my tack room.